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  “There are doctors in New York.”

  He studies me a long moment, his expression hooded. “You want to go to New York?”

  “It’s the closest thing I have to a home.”

  His hand slips under my hair to my neck. “Baby, my home is your home. What is mine is yours.”

  “I don’t want what is yours. I want you and I want a home. I want stability. I want to walk outside and not fear what is around every corner. I’m going to do what Chad said. I’m going to talk to Sheridan and I’m ending this.”

  “I’m dealing with Sheridan.”

  “No. Don’t do this again, Liam. Your taking over my life isn’t what I need.”

  “I’m trying to take care of you. Chad had the right idea, Amy, but my involvement will ensure you’re protected.”

  “We, Liam. We, not you. I need to go with you. Chad told me to go.”

  Torment flashes in his eyes. “I’m trying to be the best man I can be for you, Amy, but I don’t want you around that man.”

  I touch his face. “A few minutes ago, I was lost, Liam. Then I walked into the room and you were here and I was found. You do that for me.”

  “You are my other half, Amy. I have to protect you.”

  “Just like I want to protect you, but it’s not like Sheridan doesn’t know who I am now. He even knows that he can find me with you. This meeting, it’s about closure, and even more so, it’s my brother’s wish, maybe his last one. I need to go with you.”

  “What about your health?”

  “You made me stay in the hospital a full day when most people stay a few hours and I’ve had Dr. Murphy by my side constantly. I’m allowed to do normal things within reason.”

  “You really need to do this, don’t you?”

  “Yes. Yes, I do.”

  “Then we’ll go see Sheridan together.”

  Chapter Twenty

  Once it’s decided I am to attend the meeting with Sheridan, Liam insists I need to wear something other than the jeans and sweatsuits he brought for me. Fortunately, Dr. Murphy graciously loans me an outfit and after changing into the dress she brought me, I exit the bathroom to find her leaning on my hospital bed, her red hair tied neatly at her nape.

  “Oh hi,” I say, not expecting her.

  “Liam went to chat with Tellar in the hallway. How are the shoes?”

  “A tad big but I can make them work.”

  She gives the fitted knee-length black dress a once over and smiles.“It fits you perfectly.”

  “Yes. And the color is...appropriate.”

  She presses her red-painted lips together at my obvious reference to mourning. “You do know you did nothing wrong, right?”

  No, I don’t. “If I’d controlled my stress--”

  “There’s no scientific data to support miscarriages and stress being related. Many woman live in horrific circumstances and still deliver at full term.”

  “The flashbacks--”

  “Didn’t cause this.” She pushes to her feet and walks over to me, taking my hands in hers. “Sweetie. You did nothing wrong. It just wasn’t meant to be.”

  “When I have flashbacks, they’re memories I’ve forgotten. I don’t understand why I don’t remember until I have one of these...episodes.”

  “The mind is an amazing machine, Amy. It protects us. It gives us what we can handle. When we get back to New York, and you get some rest, come to my office and we’ll talk more.”

  “Yes. Okay.” And the idea of actually leaving the house to visit her and walking around New York without fear is a good one. I just hope this meeting makes that happen.

  “Ready?” Liam asks from the doorway.

  “Yes,” I say, zipping up the bag he’d brought me.

  Dr. Murphy walks toward Liam and stops beside him. “Make this trip you have planned fast. I prefer her off her feet.” She doesn’t wait for his answer.

  Liam arches a brow at me as she leaves. “I think I’ve been scolded.”

  I smile. “Don’t mess with Dr. Murphy or you might really get spanked.”

  He laughs, sauntering toward me, and the deep, rumbling, and wonderful sound of his laughter reaches inside me and eases just a little bit of the ache. Wrapping me in his arms, he says, “I think that might be pain not pleasure.” He sobers. “You need anything?”

  “That’s a loaded question.”

  “I suppose it is. Let’s go get this meeting over with and go home.”

  “Home,” I repeat. “I like how that sounds.”

  “Me too, baby. Me too.”

  * * *

  I exit the hospital with an entourage of Liam, Tellar, and Jared, while Dr. Murphy is being driven by private car to the airport to meet us later.

  “Sheridan’s offices are in Austin,” Liam informs me. “Any stops you want to make before we leave?”

  “If you mean, do I still want to go to the cemetery? The answer is no. When I go it won’t be to say goodbye to all three of them. It will be to tell them I saved my brother.”

  Understanding seeps into Liam’s eyes. “We’ll come back when you’re ready.”

  I lace my fingers with his. “I know.” And it feels good to know that when I do he’ll be with me.

  We ride in silence the rest of the trip and prepare to exit the Land Rover in the parking garage. Liam turns to me and says, “Say nothing inside the garage or the building that you don’t want heard. Assume everything is being recorded. And you’ve been through hell, baby, I know, but you can’t blink in this meeting. Hold your chin up and be strong. Just being here sends a message of confidence to Sheridan, but let me talk. Let me handle this.”

  “Yes.”

  “Promise me.”

  “I promise.”

  “Good.” He kisses my forehead and opens the door.

  Tellar and Jared are flanking us almost instantly and despite having three, big, confident men with me, my nerves are fluttering all over the place, as some part of me is holding on to the hope that this meeting will lead me to my brother. It’s all I can think of as we enter the lobby, until I see the well-manned security desk we have to get past.

  “Give me a minute,” Liam says, motioning to Tellar, who falls into step with him, and leaving me with Jared.

  Jared’s eyes land hard on me. “You didn’t have to do this.”

  “Chad’s letter didn’t tell me to have someone else do this. He said me.”

  “Because he wasn’t sure you’d have anyone else.”

  “If he left the clue with you, he clearly thought I’d have you.”

  “You do, you know. You have me if you need me.”

  “I know and I have you to thank for getting me the message and a whole lot more. I won’t ever forget any of it.”

  “I don’t want thanks,” he says. “I want you to stay alive.”

  “Let’s hope that’s what’s about to happen.”

  “You want your brother back. That’s not going to happen today. Don’t get your hopes up. You don’t need to be torn down again.”

  Anger stirs inside me, a mask to the pain I’m fighting to control, and I’m glad when Liam motions us forward. “Hope is all I have, Jared. Don’t take that away from me.” I’m angry. Borderline furious, and I know it’s not about Jared. It’s about the ache inside me I can’t contain.“And your timing for this conversation really sucked,” I add before I start walking.

  “Amy.” He calls after me, but I keep going, and when Liam casts me a curious look I don’t look at him for fear he’ll see me as the stupid wilting flower I feel like right now, before I shake it off. And I will. Before we get to the meeting, I will be a rock.

  We step into the elevator and Liam wraps his arms around my waist, a silent show of unity, and it’s exactly what I need. I draw a few breaths, and I find my zone. The twenty-fifth floor dings and the four of us enter an office with a fancy oriental rug softening our steps. The lobby is expensively furnished, and like so many downtown Austin offices, the walls are decorated with artw
ork highlighting the city and state.

  A pretty brunette receptionist, with long silky hair touching the shoulders of the pale pink jacket she’s paired with a black skirt, stands up to greet us from behind a mahogany desk. “Mr. Stone,” she says tightly, her attention focused on Liam and not because he’s every woman’s fantasy. There is hostility in her look that I assume should prepare us for more to come.

  “I’ll show you to Mr. Smith’s office.” She flicks an irritated look at Jared and Tellar. “They won’t be invited.”

  “That’s all right,” Jared says, sitting down in a cushy leather chair, draping his arm over the back, and settling the ankle of one long, jean-clad leg on his opposite knee. “We’ll just keep you company here in the lobby, sweetheart.”

  “Sure will,” Tellar agrees, claiming a seat across from Jared, stretching his legs out in front of him.

  The woman’s lips tighten, and it’s clear she’s not enticed by how good-looking both men are, nor pleased, for that matter. But I am quite pleased. I like knowing they are aware of what’s going on out here, when we’re wherever we’re about to be. “This way,” the woman says, turning on her heel and walking down a long hallway.

  The instant we follow, my nerves are jumping all over the place. Liam’s hand settles on my back, a silent message of protection and comfort that brings me back down a notch. I’m not alone. We are doing this together.

  The hallway stops at a walnut-finished double doorway. “This way,” the woman says, opening both doors and stepping aside to let us enter.

  Liam looks down at me, and the promise that we are in this together is in his eyes. Together we step onto the hardwood floor and toward the centerpiece of a sprawling corner office with a downtown view and expensive walnut furnishings.

  Mr. Smith, every bit his sixty-plus years, with grey hair and a rather regal carriage, stands as we approach his desk. His lips twist rather wickedly as he says, “Nothing like bringing the mouse to the cat.”

  “Unless the mouse has become the cat,” Liam replies, his hand slipping away from me as he walks forward and sets the large envelope on the desk. “Look inside.”

  I step to my left to have a view of the two men, who have the room crackling with tension.

  Smith’s dark brown eyes narrow on Liam and he appears just curious enough to bite. He tears open the seal and removes the paperwork, studying it a moment, then holds up the list of names cut in half. “Where’s the other half?”

  “It’s insurance.”

  “Insurance?” He crosses his arms. “Go on.”

  “That complete list and the damning paperwork attached to it will be mailed to the District Attorney, a number of congressmen, and local law enforcement in the event anything happens to me, Amy, or anyone who has ever breathed our same air.” Liam leans forward and plants his fists on Smith’s desk. “But because I’m a paranoid kind of guy, I took it a step further. I put a price on your head and every name on that list.”

  I gape. A price? As in he hired a hit man? Surely not.

  Smith leans in and plants his hands on the desk just as Liam has. “Two can play that game. A price for a price.”

  “Then we go nuclear,” Liam replies.

  “Yes,” Smith agrees. “We go nuclear.”

  Liam pushes off the desk and moves to stand beside me, his hand on my waist. “Let’s go.” He starts to turn me but Smith looks at me for the first time since I’ve entered the room and the cold calculation in his eyes sets me off. “I want my brother back,” I demand.

  “It takes a miracle to raise the dead, little one,” he replies. “And I don’t see you offering me any motivation to create one.”

  “I have nothing to offer,” I reply.“I was never a part of this. I never knew anything.”

  His jaw sets and he reaches for a picture and turns it to face myself and Liam. My lips part in shock as I stare at the stranger we’ve been trying to find. “My son. He was killed tragically in a plane crash six years ago. Your brother was with him. So I guess we can all agree. Your brother’s future has always been in his own hands. But then, if I could have helped him, I would have. Just as I’m sure, you would have helped your brother.”

  “She has nothing you want,” Liam bites out, “but mark my words, Mr. Smith, if I find out you have what she wants, you’ll regret the day you were born. And I will find out.”

  “Because you have money? That doesn’t work with me. I, too, have money.”

  “Money has nothing to do with it. It’s what I’m willing and capable of doing to protect what’s mine. That’s what matters here. Push me I will make you bleed in ways you never believed possible. We’re done here.”

  Liam turns me to the door and we start walking.

  “Mr. Stone.”

  Liam pauses with his hand on the door handle.

  “It’s you who do not know what I’m capable of.”

  I watch Liam’s lips hint at a cynical smile and now he turns to face Smith. “Not everything, but there are at least a hundred ways I do know you in that paperwork I gave you, and all those ways are illegal. Read through the document and butter up some popcorn. There are some real blockbusters in there.”

  And this time, Liam and I leave. Tellar and Jared follow us into the elevator car and the need for silence is killing me. The instant we are in the truck, I turn to Liam but I open my mouth and snap it shut, afraid I could say something that could later incriminate him.

  He leans in, resting his cheek next to mine like he does sometimes and whispers, “Yes. I really did it, and I will do anything to protect you and make you happy. Anything.”

  * * *

  We arrive at the private section of the airport and exit the truck. Dr. Murphy arrives in a private car and Tellar helps her with her bags. Jared turns to Liam and me and says, “This is where I say goodbye.”

  “No,” I insist. “What about Chad? We need your help.”

  “I’ll look for Chad my way.”

  “Why not join us?” Liam asks. “Consider it a private hire job.”

  “I freelance for a reason. I work best by myself.” He flicks a look at Liam. “And the jury is still out on you for me, Liam Stone, but the book isn’t closed.” His gaze settles on me. “Take care, Amy.” He turns and starts to jog toward the building.

  I dart after him. “Wait! Wait!”

  Looking surprised, he faces me and I say, “You’re the way Chad reaches me.”

  “If Chad calls, I’ll be in touch.” He softens his voice. “You can’t live thinking Chad will reappear, Amy. That’s not living and that’s not what Chad wanted for you.”

  Wanted. Past tense. He thinks Chad’s dead. “And you, Jared, can’t live without hope, or you won’t be living at all.”

  He studies me a moment, his lips quirking, a cold wind reminding us it’s November despite being in Texas, blowing wisps of light brown hair from the clasp at the back of his neck. “I haven’t really lived in a long time. I’ll be in touch.”

  He starts jogging again and this time I let him go. Liam steps to my side and laces his fingers through mine. “He left because he thinks Chad’s dead.”

  “He left because this isn’t his place or his way, not because of Chad. That doesn’t mean he’s gone. Either of them.” He motions to the plane. “We need to get you off your feet.”

  I nod and let him lead me onto the same private plane we’d been on once before. The doctor fusses over me when I don’t want to be fussed over, and finally Liam and I settle into private seats beside each other in the back of the cabin and pull the curtain for privacy. With a blanket and a pillow, I lay on my side facing Liam, and he does the same. The engines churn louder and I think about how much has happened since that first time I’d seen Liam in the airport and sat next to him on the plane.

  “That flight to Denver, did you have anything to do with me ending up in first class?”

  “Of course I did. I asked if you were making it on the flight and there was one coach seat left. I paid
the guy sitting in first class next to me fifty thousand dollars to take it.”

  I gape. “You paid fifty thousand dollars to sit next to me? I don’t understand. You were flying commercial. You could have flown private for that.”

  “I fly commercial often. I don’t believe in throwing my money away, but that fifty thousand dollars was the best money I’ve ever spent.”

  “You didn’t know me.”

  He reaches up and strokes my cheeks. “When our eyes met in that airport, I saw another lost soul. And baby, you will never be alone again.”

  I curl my fingers on his cheek.

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Liam and I spend the entire flight talking about pyramids and I find myself excited to talk about my family and the many amazing things I experienced with them. Honoring them, as Liam had once suggested.

  By the time we walk into his home, my home, I am exhausted, but I am eager to gobble down a pizza in bed with him, and when he calls it our “habit”, it creates a sweet, warm spot in my chest. Not since I lived at home with my family have I had habits I shared with anyone. I fall asleep in Liam’s arms feeling safer than I have in a long time but as I drift off to sleep, I cannot help but think of Chad, and wonder where he is.

  “Honey, grab the mail?” my mom asks as she stirs a pan on the stove. “I’m expecting something important.”

  “Sure, Mom,” I say, pushing away from the table where I was working on my homework.

  Humming the new song I just downloaded off of iTunes that I can’t get out of my head, I leave the kitchen and head toward the porch, thinking I’ll never get used to my mom baking cakes rather than digging in the dirt beside my dad.

  “You’re fucking my mother? Are you insane?”

  I stop walking at the sound of my brother’s angry outburst.

  “You fucked me,”the other man says.“I just wanted to show you how easily I can fuck you and anyone near you. And she thinks she’s helping to convince me to let your father out of our deal.” A low laugh escapes him. “Good mommy.”

  A rough growl escapes Chad’s lips and he shoves the man against the wall. “You touch my mother, or anyone in my family again, I swear to God, I’ll kill you.”